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Your Suicide by linnyxito Your Suicide by linnyxito
In memory of my friend. A true story... It's been a couple of years since it happened, so it feels good to have finished this... A very personal project :)
(Hope I'm not offending anyone - I don't mean to. And you guys don't need to comment unless you really want to. I know this sort of deviation may make people uncomfortable...)



EDIT 3: This may be harsh of me, but it's important, so I'll say it: If you are thinking about committing suicide, I beg that you reconsider... Suicide is only hurtful, to everyone involved. And if there is really nothing I can do to change your mind about taking your life, then at the very least go do everything you have ever dreamed of first; It may seriously change your mind into wanting to live. I hope it does!

A life changing surprise may be just around the corner. Just wait for it - or work for it, if you want it to come faster. Now that I've gone out of my way and said all that, let me finish up by saying one more thing: I'm just a stranger on the internet, but for what it's worth, I'm cheering for you.

And if you happen to be one of the people who've tried suicide, but then decided to give life a new try after all: Seriously friggen' amazing job! You're amazing and I look up to you!



EDIT 1: I can't believe I got a daily deviation... I really have no words... And all those comments, whoa - you people are so amazing. I really am grateful. This means so much more than you know.
EDIT 2: Minor edits, plus I added a rather important line ("Told us to remember you").

As always, send me a note if you want to talk. I'm not dangerous, although I may be very slow to reply sometimes... (:
And some of you asked if you could share this... Of course you can.
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Daily Deviation

Given 2012-11-05
Harnessing grief to inspire a singular act of faith and a courageous work of art: Your Suicide, by ~linnyxito. ( Suggested by Natalia-Luz and Featured by SRaffa )
:iconvanillacinnimon:
VanillaCinnimon Featured By Owner May 9, 2016
My boyfriend killed himself awhile back, and I absolutely love this.
Great work!
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:iconpresumptuous-cat:
Presumptuous-Cat Featured By Owner May 1, 2016  New Deviant Hobbyist Digital Artist
...💔
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:iconunicornkylie:
UNICORNKYLIE Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
At first I was going to laugh because I thought it was about a phone dying or getting smashed. Nope, wrong, very beautiful work!
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:iconfinnsthetic:
finnsthetic Featured By Owner Edited Apr 6, 2016  New Deviant Student Digital Artist
Such a powerful piece of art. I cried reading this, it inspired me so much since I have struggled with suicidal thoughts myself. Well done. May your friend rest in piece.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016
Thank you for your kind words. (:
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:icondestatidreamxiii:
DestatiDreamXIII Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
I could really feel you put your heart into this as I read through this beautiful work. The message is wonderful and the imagery conveys it beautifully as well.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016
Thank you very much - I really appreciate it. (:
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:iconfreedomdance:
freedomdance Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
So beautiful and powerful in a weird kind of way. Thank you for using your talent to try and help others. (:
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016
Thank you for the kind words. (:
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:icondevonmac:
DevonmaC Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
That is a Fantasy like.
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:icongoddessofvictory1:
GoddessOfVictory1 Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2016  Student General Artist
Thanks for this piece. It is truly lovely and beautiful. It is a message that needs to be heard all around the world. And thanks to you many people around the world has gotten this message. Because of you. This work has a message that is so true. I have friends who constantly think of suicide. They tell me all the bad things in there life. Every time they come to me and tell me this. I tell them about the good things they have. And how we would feel without them here. And that they still have me in their life. I always remind them of that. And next time they come to me and tell me that. Not only will I do that. BUT i will also show them this. Again this is truly spectacular work you've done here. And I am glad you've made this and posted it on here for everyone to see. Not only people who've want to commit suicide need to see this BUT everyone. Because thoughts and emotions are what drives us all to make the choices we make. Again thank you so much!
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016
Thank you so much for your comment! I was late in replying, and I apologize about that. You are doing an awesome job for your friends - your willpower is touching and really inspiring, and I hope it reaches all of your friends who may need it! I'm cheering you on, and your friends as well. (:
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:icongoddessofvictory1:
GoddessOfVictory1 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2016  Student General Artist
Your welcome for the comment. And thanks for cheering me and my friends on.
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:iconkirasaintclair:
KiraSaintclair Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Strong piece and very true.
I bow in respect to you and this very strong and amazing piece of artwork *bows politely*
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016
Thank you very much (and I'm sorry for replying late). I really appreciate your words.
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:iconkirasaintclair:
KiraSaintclair Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's okay. Don't worry :)
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:iconjimmydimples:
JimmyDimples Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much for this message.  It's one that needs to be repeated and heard.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016
And thank you for reading. (:
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:iconepictimewaster:
Epictimewaster Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
This is a lovely piece of art.
I'v been struggling with suicide myself and idk, this sort of hit me. 
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2015
Thank you for your kind words - I appreciate them. This is a bit of a late reply (my bad!), but I hope you're doing well. Merry Christmas. (:
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:iconthe-anonymous-girl:
the-anonymous-girl Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2015
Today i went looking trough all my favorites, just to delete a few that doesn't make me feel amazed anymore.
Truthfully i had forgotten all about this one, but now i falling in love with it again.
In the past i've lost a few good friends to suicide, so now for a sec im just thinking about them.

Thanks for such wonderfull art!
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2015
Thank you for your kind words - they're reassuring!
I hope the memories that this piece brings out aren't only bad ones, but good ones, too.

Also, I'm sorry for the late reply - but since it's already late December: I hope you'll have a Merry Christmas.
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:iconthe-anonymous-girl:
the-anonymous-girl Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2016
It are the good memories about the people, it's been a few years now. So it was nice to think about them in a good way and remember how they were. 

And no problem i'm not that active anymore. I hope you had a wonderful christmas andd a happy new year^^
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:iconlacrimosa-angelus:
Lacrimosa-Angelus Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
This is...actually decent. Intense, but not fake. :)
Congratulations on completing this personal project. ;) 
(Despite you posting this in October).
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2015
Thank you! I'm not sure what you meant by the last sentence ("Despite you posting this in October"), though. If it's a reference to something, I'm afraid I didn't pick up on it. ^^;
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:iconkronosx2008:
Kronosx2008 Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
...
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:iconwarfanq:
WarFanq Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2015  Student General Artist
Absolutely beautiful in such a soul-shattering way
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2015
Thank you. (:
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:iconsomebodycallamedic:
somebodycallamedic Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2015  Student General Artist
People who think of committing suicide don't do it to be over dramatic, holy shit. Saying 'Stop it' or 'Go live!' doesn't really, help. In fact, it puts even more blame on the person. You don't know their life. People who have depression aren't 'sad' all the time. They do think of the good things, they laugh and smile. Chronic depression is not 'always depressed'. It's a depression, a deep sadness, that keeps coming back.

Also, gathering up your strength doesn't make the past or trauma go away. Not everybody has a disorder or illness because of trauma, however.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2015
I apologize... My intention was never to insult or hurt, but to help by 'startling people into thinking differently', if I can put it like that. After I post this message I'll go edit the deviation description to hopefully better suit that goal. Thank you for your honest comment.
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:iconchickie456:
Chickie456 Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2015
"THIS TIME, we'll get there in time..." Gosh I love that part, along with the hands all grabbing his....it's very powerful....reading this always brings tears in my eyes....
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2015
Thank you, it means a lot to hear that. (:
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:icontuggersgirl:
Tuggersgirl Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
this is beautiful, I was in sixth grade when my friend told me for the first time she wanted to kill herself I felt so helpless I had no Idea what to do that I started crying right there on the spot she hugged me and whispered "you won't miss me for long" 
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2015
Thank you, and I'm very sorry to hear that your friend said that... May I ask whether he/she made it past the idea of ending their life, or if they are still here?
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:icontuggersgirl:
Tuggersgirl Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
she thank God is still with me at the moment an I'm really really trying to keep it that way, she often throws in hints one time even asking me to help her make a list of the people who would miss her if she died I told her she would need more paper, she snipped that real friends told the truth. that hurt like crazy. 
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:iconhavane31:
Havane31 Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2015
It is sad. But not that sad, actually. Like... it carries hope, somehow.
I like it :3
And I agree with you. Suicide is nothing romantic. It's like, giving up on everyone. Actually, that's kinda selfish, I guess. i don't know.

Anyways, that really is a good drawing :3
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:iconpaperarmor:
PaperArmor Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2015
Well dam this broke my heart.
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:iconn-i-k-n-a-k:
n-i-k-n-a-k Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2015  Hobbyist Artist

Beautiful, heart wrenchingly so.
Thank you for sharing.

Go live! Absolutely!

As someone who has looked into the abyss and pulled back, I applaud you for your straightforward honestly. I was just shy of twelve years old when I started looking into suicide. As bad as my situation was, I couldn't bare the thought of how my mother would react to finding me or of my grandparents to the news thereafter. Plus, I wanted to publish books and fall in love and discover some kind of new dinosaur fossil (I know, but I was ambitious). I wrote a note at some point - which I find periodically as I move around - and it reminds me of how I brought myself away for that abyss.

Everyone has something to live for and you can't allow yourself to be willfully ignorant of that fact. People care about you and it does get better, shit ends eventually. You just have to pull yourself up, set your feet forward, and keep walking until it does. Do something productive, it helps, don't wallow and let the issues fester. 

This is a piece I will be visiting again. Very powerful. The child in me is a bit more at peace now.

Thank you again.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015
You're completely right! I hope many people read your comment. Especially the part about doing something productive, it helps.

Thank you so much for your comment.
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:iconbookythedragon:
bookythedragon Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So amazing. . . Brought tears to my eyes. Straight from the heart, this piece just cut right through my heart. . . Beautiful. Outstanding.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015
Thank you, that means a lot. (:
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:iconkamism:
kamism Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2015   Digital Artist
It's 2015 and found this in my favorites. Reading it again bought tears in my eyes still. Just as impacting as the day I read it when you were awarded the Daily Deviation. I still consider this piece the most powerful one on dA.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015
I'm overwhelmed - thank you so much!
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:iconwichman:
Wichman Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is truly a touching piece, it actually made me feel comfortable. Thank you so much for sharing and your kind words :hug:
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2015
Thank you for reading. (:
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:iconzaizanahr:
Zaizanahr Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2015
that was an amazing visual journey, thank you.
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2015
Thank you for reading.
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:iconhardlyastory:
HardlyAStory Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for sharing this! It really gets to my feels ;-; 
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:iconlinnyxito:
linnyxito Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2015
Thank you, for reading. (:
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:iconmisluck:
MisLuck Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for this. 

I was too late too. Or no, I knew it was going to happen, I was just sunk so deep myself I didn't know how to pull her up. 
We said we'd go together but I never had the time, I was drowning in life and tried to drag her along the best I could. Keep us both in the surface.

It's funny, 16 years and the guilt is still eating me alive.
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